I know there's one black dude...my friend allen I asked to come is black, but he never cared for the message board thing. it's funny, his birthday is asp's birthday....and I got two more friends born jan 3rd.
I think things are as good as they will ever be, I'm as smart , healthy, and as beautiful as I ever will be, and it's all down hill from here.
I feel no one will ever understand me, and I'm tired of trying to be understood.
I will always be alone, even with someone.
I'm lonely
there's so much about me that's wrong, yet, something is right about me that I can't put my finger on.
what matters most to me is deep, intimate, true, unconditional, fearless mutual belief that higher love exists between friends and lovers
I think we have a purpose here, and a lesson to be learned for spiritual evolvement, that once completed ends this segment of conscienceness.
I wish drugs were legal.
I wish all children could be aware of their wonderous beautiful uniqueness and love themselves like I love me.
I'm so blindingly beautiful, pure, and truely angelic inside it amazes me and I find it hard to belive myself.
I'm on heavens vip list because of my unique ability to give what I have as I destroy myself.
I wonder if I am stupid or generous by putting art up on the web and when people ask if they can buy it I say...just right click it, save it and print it..........it's all yours no charge.
I also wonder how to put my talents where I could actually make money doing what i love, without coming off as something I despise, heartless capitalist, unfeeling, and driven by money.
I suck at business
it's killing me that my exbosses never knew how much I loved them and how I tried to do everything possible to secure bonds of friendship, Everything I did for them in business was genuine, heartfelt and on the level because love that will out live everything material, and could even be taken with them in death ......the power and strenghth of friendship can't be bought or sold. it stays in your heart forever.
I don't mind my new job, but i'm really hurting that the last one did'nt work out after all I went thru watching their house and business. I never stole, I never lied, I never judged them for being gay, in fact I thought they would be more open because of it.
they did'nt accept me, and could'nt belive a heart could be this true.
this was pretty theroputic for me to write that down.... ...it's just been floating.
I am Hayley I like sitting in a really hot bath for 2 hours. I hate living in England I often wonder where my lifes gone wrong. I spend too much time online. I'm not two faced. I laugh too much I'm not selfish I just always get what I want. I think to much. I worry too much. I do too much coursework for a first year. (Aparrently) I love flirting. Sometimes people don't get my jokes. I fall in love with the wrong people. I hate trapped wind. I hate more people then I actually like. It really pisses me off when someone dwells on self pity. I love gay men but hate butch lesbians. I love talking about sex. I spend too much money on my phone, texting a sexy auzzie man and randoms overseas. I love sitting with the boys. I like phone sex. I love play fighting. I spend too much money on clothes and makeup. I spend to much time on my nails. I love talking to people on the phone about random things. I smile every time I think about my first love. I can keep a secret. I have a good memory. I don’t believe in getting so drunk that you can’t remember anything the next morning. I like pink, black and green. Together. I believe in Karma. I love dancing. I give an awesome lap dance drunk (apparently) I hate people that look for attention. I love me. I love sex. I love watching porn. I really really hate 2 people on this forum. I talk too much. I think about people on this forum during the day. Oh yeah, I'm lazy. I love my bed. I smell gorgeous. I'm wearing a pink black anf green thong right now. I like masturbating. I'm naughty. I think I'm ugly. I I see people naked. I like to look at lads bums. I get a buzz off certain lads who flirty touch me! I like kissing. I like it when people compliment me.
hayley..... the more I look inside you, the more there is to see. .............if I'm one of the two you hate on this board, I'll have to work on that, because I think you're sensitive, deep, perceptive, and beautiful. I appreciate your baddness very much, and I also appreciate your true goodness that pulses inside you........ we are alot alike, for two very different women. and I get your jokes..... .........now that I read em like marilyn monroe with an english accent. it's a pleasure to understand where you are coming from.
Suze, I wrote a reply to your question to me here but it is not here today. I do not have a problem with people of any race or creed. I hate what happened to the slaves and the Native Americans. I do not think discrimination of any type is okay. I do not like being discriminated against simply because I am white.
I wrote some other stuff too, but it is gone. WTF??? I thought this was a free speech site???? WTF?
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It's all good ... I EXPECT people to speak up if they think something was censored ...
... remember when Hayley's thread disappeared? ... it was from her not logging out properly, however, it took us two days investigating to ascertain that
"Thrash" wrote ... It's all good ... I EXPECT people to speak up if they think something was censored ...
... remember when Hayley's thread disappeared? ... it was from her not logging out properly, however, it took us two days investigating to ascertain that
Indeed......That was a very suspicious incident....But nobody of power did it....So it was a mystery...strange how not logigng out properly could delete a thread....ANYWAY! I'll go again,Sorry if i repeat anything...Its been a bit since i last did this but i LOVE the idea.....
I love photos or media that is abstract and makes you feel alive,no matter if its extreme violence,a good love story or a mellow song....
I feel like a failure at everything i do.....Even if i succeed and meet my previous goals i'll still eventually think im a failure at it and that ive accomplished nothing.....
I wish i was more assertive with things and didnt keep putting off things that were important to me...
I wish to god i had a meaningful relationship with a girl...
I love my dog to death,He's the best in the world.....
Im addicted to halo online and have easily spent at LEAST 400 hours playing online alone....
I wish i treated my mother better and was more understanding and caring of her situation.....
And hay hay,That was incredible that last one you posted....Your so awsome hayley,Seriously you are...Shit id kill to meet some of you girls for real......YOu sound like such awsoem people
