I want to say before i begin, that you are one the most beautiful, down to earth women I chat with on-line. I'm proud to know you xoutlaw, you should get a job teaching white people to be in harmony with nature.
well first.... ...what's your first name?
Elizabeth, but I have always gone by Ann (my middle name).
what's your birthday and astrology sign? April 4th. Aires the Ram. Fire sign
where were you born? ......what state are you in now? Texas/Texas
what are your spiritual beliefs, or religion? I am a Christian.
was your childhood happy? Very happy. My teens were rough because I was rebellious and did not fit in.
are you married? Not presently. I "shack up" with my man.
got kids? None of my own. My boyfriend has two sons.
how bout pets? One big, spoiled dog named Dolly.
what kind of work do you do? I manage a Mini-Storage business and am a U-Haul dealer. I love my job.
what is a day in your life like? Wake around seven, watch GMA, get ready for the day. Walk through the door into my office. Turn on computer. Work a little. Check all my sites for news. Work a little more. Play games, read news, walk around the facility and check the locks and units for break ins, clean my apartment, play with the dog. My bf gets home around 2:00 from work. We talk. Work a little. Close office at 5:00. Talk and cook together. Watch TV, more talking. Eat, sleep, repeat. Pretty routine during the work week. Quite a change from the unresponsible person I was two years ago. Then I had no steady job, no bf, no responsibilities, no routine of any kind. I am happy to be a grown up now. ........what is your favorite day off like? On days off we like to explore places we have never been. We moved to this area in 8/2004 so there is a lot to see. We are at the four corners of Texas, Arkansas, Oklahoma, and Louisiana. There are a lot of things to do and places to go. We like boating and fishing. got any hobbies? . I love to travel and see new places.
okay...if there was going to be a movie about you made, who would play you? Sandra Bullock. I love her. She is so real and down to earth. She's a Texan too.
what's your theme song? "Take it Easy" by the Eagles (yes, I'm old! )
lefty or right handed?. Lefty. You know, left handed people are controlled by the right side of the brain, and right handed people are controlled by the left. So basically us leftys are the only ones in our right minds!
If you could have any superpower from a super hero...what would you want? I'm not sure if I could handle all the responsibility that comes with having a super power.
Are you a good person? I like to think I am. I try to live my life in a way that does not hurt other people or our earth. I don't litter. I treat people the way I would like to be treated. My Granny taught me that.
whats wrong with the world? I think the main problems in the world are caused by a break-down in family values. The deterioration of the family unit in our society has led to most of the problems we see today. Kids have no role models any more. They are bombarded with sex and violence from a very young age, and no one is there to guide them. It is really sad. Kids don't play outside anymore. They have no imaginations. They expect to be in a constant state of stimulation. This is bad in my opinion.
what would fix it? I do not think it can be fixed. I guess if we reversed time.
what's your weaknesses? Chocolate, trusting too much in people, believing everyone and everything have good in them. Not keeping in touch once I make a friend. Taking life too seriously sometimes. I can be anal about some things. I need to learn not to sweat the small stuff. I am getting better. .......strengths? My strenghts are in contrast to my weaknesses. I am honest to a fault. I trust and believe in people. I believe in the power of change. I am hard headed and head strong. I am loyal and loving.
worst fears? I fear losing my parents. I fear that my little neice and nephew will get into drugs. I fear that my bf's sons will too. I fear that one day America will be under attack again. what's yer favorite food? A big fat, thick steak. Medium rare. Yummmmmm
your 3 favorite bands? Well I guess I am going to show my age here. My favorite band of all time is Led Zeppelin. I like a lot of new music too. My favorite new band is Nickleback. I also love Stevie Ray Vaughn (RIP), and Pink Floyd.
3 movies?Dances with Wolves is my favorite movie. I like Forrest Gump and Raising Arizona.
favorite actor and actress? Nicholas Cage and Sandra Bullock.
3 favorite songs?I like too many to distinguish favorites.
Do you play an instrument? No, I always wanted to learn to play guitar. I own a beautiful Yamaha Classical that I have had since I was 14. like thunderstorms? Yes, I think they are very romantic as long as I am inside,preferably under a tin roof.
Of course, we met at a meth recovery website.. .......................what made you decide to quit using meth?...
I quit in July of 2004. I wanted a better life and I knew what I was doing was wrong. I also knew it was hurting me and my family. I was tired of being broke and wanted to re-join the real world. ......do you do other drugs? acid? weed? or drink? I drank some wine at New Years. Other than that I do not drink, smoke, or use any drugs anymore. Only on special occasions will I drink. I just do not enjoy it anymore. Pot just makes me looney and hungry. I used to think I would never quit smoking pot. I just have no desire to do it again. I think I am finally growing up.
is there anything you would like us to know about you, that you feel is a vital part of knowing the real you?
I love the outdoors. I like to lead a simple and quiet life. I am a private person by nature. It takes me a long time to get to know people, and even longer for them to get to know me. Once I make a friend, I am very loyal and devoted. I have few close friends, but the ones I do have, I would do anything for. I love God and my family. I do believe there is good left in the world, you just have to find it. Once you find it you have to maintain it.
what would you like to be remembered for the most? I would like to be remembered as the world's greatest Aunt (and possibly step-mom).
I'll remember you as a sweetheart xoutlaw! *hugs* ...thanks for the interview!
I do. I have a shotgun for Turkey hunting, a 17 mag for varmits, and a 357 Ruger Pistol for personal protection.
You have to remember, I'm a country girl. I lived 18 miles from the nearest town, on a river bank, in a cabin all alone, before I moved up here and took this job. I was raised around guns. My father taught me how to shoot and gun safety. All the men in my family are hunters. Some of the women as well.
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Is 'TexasTwister' some kind of unique Lone Star State version of the regular Milton Bradley family game?
I would guess, Ms Twister, that you are about my age. But, there are new Led Zep fans all the time, so perhaps take heart, maybe you aren't I'd guess you were born before we landed on the moon tho
Why do you keep looking outside of you for the goodness? Just what is goodness? What is meant to be? I think that is good, do you? What if what is meant to be is supposed to suck ass for a while? And we were chosen to witness it? The duress is not important.
Funny comment about my name...I had not thought of that.
I guess I am always looking for the good in the world. It is inside of me. I feel good, I behave in good ways, I am a very happy person. I have experienced my fair share of heartache, like we all have. I believe we must experience the bad to apprieciate the good. Without the rain, there would be no rainbows. I would not trade all my experiences for anything as they molded me into who I am. Each painful lesson was a learning tool. I always thrive to focus on the positive things. I have a lot to be thankful for. I find it difficult to piss and moan about what I don't have, or complain about things, as there are many who have nothing. I am not talking about material possessions here either.
What is meant to be will be. If it involves duress, then it was intended to teach us something. The suck ass parts can be a time of personal growth and learning. If we come away from our life experiences a wiser person, that is good. All my suck ass times have proven to be very valuable in teaching me how to love life to the fullest extent. The good far outweighs the bad in my life. That is how I see it.
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I dunno... you must be conflicted with the shack-up arrangement, being a Christian and all. I know I was when I did it, and I'm not particularly Christian by nature. (by the way I do good things) Your man needs a slap, he should marry you this minute! It's good to see a man with his kids. I see it as more duress my friend... longterm perhaps, it may seem like cherries now.
I think your word is strong enough of a bond ......and really....it's all you get anyway.
all marriage is .............man made it. not GOD.
God can bless a union that's founded on love, intimacy, and sacred by consumation in nature. ............................like a great rite. you can bend and evolve your beliefs to suit your style, in ways that you "feel" is ok with the universe.
...........like jews that eat pork. but not on passover.
"christian" means....belives in christ. ...it does'nt mean...
Christians believe that Jesus Christ died for our sins. He is my personal savior. It does not mean we are some perfect types who never sin. I am forgiven for my sins. I do try to live my life so that God approves. I am a creature of free will. God made me that way.
It is my choice not to be married. I was married twice and both times failed at it. I suck at being married. I do not want to be married again. I am deeply committed to Tony and our lives together. We have an un-conditional love between us. We agree that we will spend our golden years together. I pray each day for God to guide our relationship to his will. This may fly in the face of traditionalists who say "men and women who share a bed should be married", but I say that God understands. Maybe that is bending it to fit my lifestyle choice, I don't know. I do know God loves me, and I still think I am a good person.
To clarify something about the boys: They live with their mother nine months of the year. She is re-married and they have a little half sister. We talk to them almost every night on the phone and go to see them as often as we can. They spend summers with us. They live 3 and 1/2 houes away.
Why do you see me as conflicted and under duress? Do I come across that way? Really I am a very happy and well grounded individual (especially considering all I have been through in my past). If I were to meet you in real life, you would probably never suspect I was a dope fiend two years ago. Even when I was on dope, other dopies would say to me "you seem so together, you don't have a problem." They wondered how I kept my shit together when everyone else was going nuts. I do not know the answers. I knew I was very messed up. They just did not see it. Maybe because they were messed up too and I seemed normal to them. Maybe because I owned my own home and had a college degree. I don't know.
What is it about my interview that shouts duress and conflict to you?
it's only a reflection of love's own duress and conflict. ........................it's part of his charm. don't let it bother you.
for some reason....even in my own belief structures, the word "christian" brings up feelings I can't explain. I suppose because it is the most popular and forced religion, and so many "non-belivers" died in it's name....it has alot of people who don't behaive in the way they supposedly advocate. ....but that's true of everything. I know you are a good person, and I would'nt hurt you or see you hurt for the world. ........because I KNOW you on many other levels, and you would be a shining example of what chrisianity SHOULD be....even with the "shacking up" ....to me, that means nothing. what means something is intention, purity of heart, humility, sincerity, integrity and honor.
however... If I did'nt know you, unfortunately, since I was raised in the south, I equate christians in general with hiding your booze when company comes... so no one knows you drink....and hyprocritical shit like... God made everything...I hate niggers!
........I'm not stabbing at it, I'm trying to understand it myself. you might be the only christian here... that I know of....and that's great. someone's gotta do it. I used to be the only drug addict here, and belive me ...I was poked here and there ...but I explained it until people here understood me. you are gonna teach me there are christians out there that are cool. it's just our EXPERIANCES with people in that group that push us to take it out on the wrong people.
I think lovernios is also "freelance" in the religion dept. ....and was testing your water to see how deep it runs......see what I mean? he was'nt poking you, just testing for firmness.
Did you get to read my response to the question about if I had a problem with black people?? Cyber space ate the first one. Hopefully you saw it before it did. I bought a shirt once from the Ku Klux Klan, but I do not hate anyone. I hate the things that happened to the slaves and the Native Americans. It is wrong to hate anyone and wrong to discriminate. Well, anyway, I love you too Suz. You have a way with words friend. Get your puter fixed soon ok?
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Bah, I don't think you are under duress, as such. Other than the normal life crap. I was thinking more about his sons. See, there's all this talk about crumbling marriages and the demise of the nuclear family that is bringing society slowly down. Moral decay and a lack of true depth between people is perhaps the result.
My ex-wife lives with a man. I fucking hate her selfish guts for it, as the 'relationship' has never been particularly stable. My daughter used to live in the middle of that nonsense, but 3 yrs ago decided to face her mother and move in with dad. This is where I am coming from. I hated the sell-out example she gave my daughter... The ex-w is shack-up because she cannot earn much money, that is all there is to say. I perked up at your interview on a few of these themes, just to get your perspective more or less.
Ultimately, people should live their lives as they see fit. If you know the spectre of marriage is not a good fit for you (with 2 in the can), life still has to proceed, and people need people to essentially be happy and evolve. It's the only way. I imagine the boys are fine, and look up to your relationship with Tony, and are glad you are around for him (and themselves too).
The relationship between Tony and myself runs very deep. We were good friends for several years prior to having an intimate relationship. We both went thru a divorce around the same time. We became dear friends. The relationship evolved from about three years of friendship first. I met the boys as a friend of their Dad's. We grew close too.
When I moved away to take the job I have now, our love for each other began to grow. We decided we did not want to be apart and we wanted to take the relationship to the next level. I moved away in 8/2004 and he come up here to work, and moved in, in 1/2005.
We are very stable. More so than a lot of married people I know. We share the same interests, goals for our future, and we rarely ever fight. It is the best relationship I have ever been in. He was there when I decided to quit drugs too, so he has seen me at my worst.
I am glad I got to explore this on a deeper level with you Lovernios. The boy's mom wishes we would get married and now I can see her perspective.
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BTW - do not think I equate your life situation with my ex's Your's seems to be founded in far more deeper meaning and mutual respect/sharing You can see why I seized on it though
I moved the black people reply to philosophy, under "are you predudiced" It's prolly wrong place for it too. ...............but it seemed like something we had'nt really talked about in lenghth. maybe we just are'nt intrested enough to debate it....or talk about it.
I think your warm outlaw...i think being a drug addict, conflicted with who you really are, I like this interview, it is a side I havent seen before. I understand you better. I think it was open and honest. Your grounded, you have solid morals. Does your family give you shit about you "shacking" with your ole man?
Failed marriage...was it you or them? was drug addiction the thing you had in common with those relationships? Did they cheat on you? What happen?
No my family loves and accepts me for who and what I am. They like my man and know my reasons for not wanting to marry again. They understand.
As for the marriages, the first was an alcoholic and abusive. End of story.
The second was a relationship built on drug abuse and false pretences. He and I are two very different people from very different backgrounds. We had nothing in common except getting high. Different values and lifestyles. Meth was the final divider in that relationship. It sped the end along to a grand finale. I am glad too.
