and forgotten, it wasnt that I didnt log out, It was that I didnt log out at college and then "we thinks" that someone who was mentioned in that thread deleated it.
(Don't quote me... but It was very strange... and I've never gone on tsi since from college that is)
My name is still Meghan...although it's survived several variations over the past couple of months.
I can name five friends right off the top of my head that I know for a fact love me.
I use the word "like" so often in my speech I absolutely hate it.
It's terrible being gifted with words and never being able to say them when it matters most.
Whenever I talk on the phone with someone I get to the point where I begin to use the same word over and over again simply because I can’t come up with another topic for conversation.
I'm paranoid. So paranoid.
I think I'm becoming a music snob and I hate it.
I think if a perfect word ever existed, quirky would be it. It has such a strange combination of underused letters that the way it's spelled seems to match oh so harmoniously with its definition.
I have a lover, I real, honest to goodness lover. I don't think I've really ever had one of those.
I'll be an art teacher before I die.
I've always wanted to be European and not just for the cool accent.
The only thing I have in common with my boyfriend is the fact that we're both left-handed.
I also like to think that I'm a doughier version of Wonder Woman.
I'm addicted to camera phones.
For some reason, I equate gummi bears with sex.
Every time I'm called a poser I just want to
punch someone in the mouth.
Before I die, I am 100 onvinced that I will have gone bungee-jumping and sky-diving and still be around to tell about it.
I want to live to be 100 years old and then go out like a candle the very next day.
I will be a kickass grandma.
I bite my nails uncontrollably!
Sometimes I wonder if my dad is an alcoholic.
I plan on joining the Peace Corps. when I graduate.
I was always afraid to run away when I was little because I thought my parents would never let me back in.
I buy Febreeze in hopes that my dirty clothes will wear just a day or two longer.
When I curl up in this bathrobe I can be just as popular as a movie star.
A pair of glass can make me feel sexy. They’re like my Superman disguise…only in reverse.
I wish I could make this longer, but the harder I try, the fewer things I can come up with.
“I see that you’re talking, but all I’m hearing is ‘Blah, blah, blah, I’m a dirty whore.’???
Nelson Mandela is one of my heroes.
I’m growing an addiction for chocolate chip cookies.
All I really need to survive are gummi bears, coffee, and sex. Today I’ve had the gummi bears and coffee.
My teeth are funny-shaped and give me an awkward smile. It bugs the hell out of me, and everyone else thinks it’s great.
Emo kids are bastards.
Someday I will travel the world.
I wear four-inch heels even though I’m already almost six feet tall.
I was called a whore once and took it as a compliment.
Sometimes I’m loud and obnoxious in public just because I like showing off for my friends.
I’m the plainest person I know, but in my mind I’m much edgier than I seem.
My nightmares make me think I have the subconscious mind of Stephen King.
Georgia O’Keefe paintings look like vaginas. I know I’ve heard that somewhere before.
I saw a Prince Charming doll that looked just like Leonard Nimoy…my, how our standards have dropped.
My little sister thinks she’s a princess. Sometimes I do too.
Some of my online friends know me better than I know myself…
I’m an enjoyable eclectic.
I love being kissed on the neck.
I found out the other day that not only do I have Italian heritage, but I’m also very Irish and German on my mother’s side. So that’s where my alcoholism comes from.
Yes, Georgia O'Keefe paintings do look like vaginas. I am glad I am not the only one who sees this. I have been thinking that for years.
Funny how when the weather is gray and gloomy, so am I.
I wanted to go out and eat a good steak yesterday and instead we had shitty service and even shitter food.
I wish I was 25 again and know what I know now.
I would not have ever married anyone.
Now that I have real love and devotion in my life, I do not want to marry.
I like chocolate cheesecake.
I think that is what I will have for breakfast.
My diet sucks.
Sometimes I wish I was a bird and could fly away.
I like it when a man makes me feel irresistable. Like he cannot wait to get his hands on me. When he looks at me and just breathes hard and fast. When he shivers when he touches me. That is a major turn on.
Sometimes ugly people are the best lovers.
I had an ugly lover once and he was superb. Just kept the lights low.
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Sins are just a label on something Jesus really wanted you to try.
Black and white is a festering lie, we are all a tapestry of greyness
No man can possibly live as a nomad forever
I have alot more love in my heart than I thought possible. It is scaring me.
The toughest challenge lately with kid has been to balance her need to mature as her own separate entity, and my reflexive desire to make things easy. She's 17, I need to make her do alot more for herself. Her future husband will thank me.
I love winter, the spectacle of it is awesome to behold. When old man winter moves in, you have to take heed.
I love complicated women.
I am irrepressible and resilient most times. I am drawn to the most difficult common denominators however, my hopes and dreams are full of the thrall of taking a chance on life, and the bigger the better. It is either sabotage or maximizing potentials, I am lost on this at the moment.
Romance is in my marrow, it is when I feel most alive. I find I need it.
Your woman should be on a pedestil at all times. She should be worshipped. She should be your inspiration. She should be your love focus, and where you deposit all the love you can. You should take time to think of her every day, pushing all self aside in that context. Fuck you for a moment, in other words. A man needs a muse to test his mind and his heart, for an exemplary stay on this forsaken place. A woman is just that. I wish to thank K for insights, you will never be forgotten my friend.
I wish to move mountains.
There are IRL people I sort of want to know more about, but my mojo is stuck in another dimension. I like Theresa, Deborah and Becki.
I want to bleed and slice and pay with tears.
I want to earn a chance to unleash myself unrequited.
Time waits for no man. I am sick of sacrifice, and am afraid I will take it out on someone dear. They do not deserve that, I love them too much. I REALLY NEED A ME MOMENT. I have forgotten how to be selfish.
I am thankful beyond the pale for darkness and inhibition.
I deserve to be taken care of some times. I need my back scratched and clawed. Talons of love.
My favorite word is 'innuendo', because it is, in and of itself, an innuendo. Probably the most perfect English word.
I love words that denote the presense of 2 influences at once, like paradox, irony, connundrum, sarcasm, co-incedence, parity, balance, bifurcation. They are expansive to viewpoints and as modes of expression they have built-in ways of helping find clarity.
If a guitar sounds like a razor blade feels, I could cum. Hail Abyssic Hate forever.
Forgotten. I was mad, but now I'm not anymore. I forgive whatever transgressions and principals I felt you crapped on. You are non-essential to me, it was the principals that always were.
TexasTwister is badass, I like her presense here alot.
Ultimately... I am secure in my lot in life. I am here for a reason. It was my string of choices, and that said, I'd do it all the same way again.
I like my chances for happiness, though it seems kinda confusing at present.
I am sick of national sports, there is no loyalty or tradition left, only greed now.
I have never really been a jealous man, until lately.
Joined: Wed Mar 16 2005, 01:18am
Location: in a Finnish goat hut north of the Arctic circle
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woody allen is a fucking asshole. We create our own misery, and have no clue where to look for the opposite. Hate is law. We wallow in rot and wonder why. It's insipid.
I fully understand your reasonings mike and most likely would have handled the situation in the almost exact same mannor if in your shoes......
I either listen to Extremely mellow happy music,Or extrmely violent Angry music
THe majority of my socilizing is online....Real life "friends" just fuck you over eventually
I love my job,yet i hate it in a way and want to go back to bussing....But that would completely ruin my chances at ever moving up there......Why am i sabotaging myself like this? I thought once i got here id be happy.....
If i could id easily work 7 days a week,I have little else to do....
I feel Like everyone dislikes me behind my back and thinks im ugly.....Even online......
I can be very hard on myself in the wrong situations when i shouldnt be......
I dont care about sex as much as i do having a meaningful relationship with someone i truly would love...
I dont care about sex as much as i do having a meaningful relationship with someone i truly would love...
It's not the fairy tale version, but it's a fact that sex is a very important part of a relationship.
Girls generally won't stay around long if you're not too great in the sack. Guys may want it more, but when girls want it they want it done right.
Do yourself a favor and go be a slut for a bit and get some skills, so when you find one you want to stay with you're more comfortable in bed and can please her.
And forgotten, you need to find some real life friends. Stop being so down.
I'm not flaming you, but people generally act very different online than they do in person, and if you don't get out and socialize a bit your internet side is going to bleed into your real life personality.
It's hard to just go out and meet people randomly. I only do because I'm loud and have a good sense of humor and it's a conversation starter.
Find a hobby or club or something. Get a job where you can talk to people and get an idea of what they like before even talking to them...A bookstore is a great place to meet people.
My first night at boxing i met alot of cool people and have been hanging out with them alot. Go play some poker and meet new people, buy a motorcycle and and get into that group of friends, Take a college art class and meet people that way.
There's all kinds of way to meet people, But you have to get offline to do it.
