Joined: Sat Mar 03 2007, 05:15pm
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now that i don't smoke, i am craving really spicy foods with habeneros... and SEXXXXX... all the time.....
i have not been twiddling my diddle lately, because of that last time, when i ended up Not getting of during sex... and it has made things just dandy.
we now have two bathrooms, full ones.
Andy wants the hallway one to be his... and the one in our room to be mine...
i think it's cuz when he showers he likes to wank his crank, and if i am in there brushing my teeth or something, he won't do it...
plus he wants privacy.. no problem, i love privacy in the shower too...
so, instead of protest and tell him how fucking hot it is to watch him jerk off, i am going to lay off and let him have his space, because i Know he would do that for me.
someone please pat me on the back for being a good girl
Joined: Sat Mar 03 2007, 05:15pm
Location: creeping up behind you
Posts: 949
YAY! Also, i have been researching and i found that daily ejaculation for men can lower a man's chance of getting prostate cancer and other things....
and he doesn't like having sex during the day, but i suppose being alone in the shower is very different than sex...
so because i want him to live a long healthy life, i will stop worrying about weather his shower time means he doesn't want me anymore... because it doesn't...
and i know if i masturbate it doesn't mean i don't want him...
(i know, it's retarded, i worry about every little thing)
Joined: Sat Mar 03 2007, 05:15pm
Location: creeping up behind you
Posts: 949
really?? hmm. well, i think that i am finally starting to mature... i am positive that my emotional maturity ended when i started using drugs heavily back when i was 14.... now that i have been totally clean for 3.5 years... and have been properly diagnosed, and been in the right kind of therapy for a little bit...
i think i am growing up.
i think i have let go of some things, including fear that Andy either doesn't like me, or is cheating, or leaving...
that stuff isn't true at all.
you know how you can tell if someone is being dishonest with you? well he isn't.
and i think i am able to appreciate things in a different and better way now.
it wasn't until we moved into this bigger apartment that i realized how cramped we really were. he sees it too.
and it may sound weird, but we were WAY more codependent there than we are here...
so, i think things are moving forward. it is good!
