Joined: Fri Jan 12 2007, 04:38am
Location: Florida
Posts: 687
Congrats on the *sort of* win in court - they have passed all sorts of new insane laws about 'corrupting a minor' and such, one of which is they will take your drivers license away for providing alcohol to a kid! Is why I freak out whenever I find out kids are drinkin at my house.
I went to probation today. .......I was nervious as a cat, because places like that make me feel (more) sub human.
....I cried on the way home.
Just the stress of it. I feel like I'm 17, except I'm old as dirt.
it's very very upsetting to me, even tho I know it could be worse... ....I did'nt do nuthin wrong. (this time)
It just kinda covers me in a rancid tide of ugly memories when I SHOULD have been in trouble and was'nt.
Now, I quit doing drugs, and I'm trying to be a good person. .....and I'm under suervision of the county...
They want 200 more dollars, (2 more visits) and I gotta do community service... the flagler beach library.. at least 5 hours a week. ....it should be over jan 15th.
I'm not ON probation. ....I'm on community service.
I was just compelled to tell you what happened ultimately.
You already DO community service WTF??? I mean I saw that thread at KCI where you talking to 'raven' I mean (hold on theres something in my eye) You were like that womans lifeline...I forgot what that shit was like on those boards, I was increadibly impressed Suze
nobody that I fessed up to my part of this wrong doing aginst you knew what exactly to do and how and when...and no matter what, I wish that I had gone to you when I wanted to and dealt with it, like I should have. No matter what the outcome of it all would have been. It sure as hell would have been less time with me dealing with this monkey on my back...and we would have had that chance to deal with it in PM...not in this public forum...but, thanks to Broken...this is how it had to come to you.
You say that it helped you...and I am grateful that something that was meant to hurt you did help you...but, that doesn't mean that what I did was right....and I am sorry for the full amount of my part in it...there was no excuse or reason I can come up with to justify it...not even Broken's hate towards you.
I am sorry and I wish I could take it back, because it was wrong of me to do it and especially for the reasons I did it...period.
well, I thought an annonomous FRIEND tipped off the DA about my website, but it was intentended to get my ass put in jail I guess. ...someone addmitted to trying to fuck me over seriously.
