This is from a book my uncle used to have....I don't know the name. ...it was one of my favorite reference books. I looked up "latient speed personalities" on line....and there it was... ....so, here it is. You'll recognize alot of what impressed me about it. I use some of its lingo still.
The roller-coaster ride begins with a tremendous rush accompanied by feelings of elation and confidence.
Unlimited power seems to be at the speeder's fingertips.
The pupils dilate; the heart pumps frantically, breathing is rapid, and the mucous membranes get dry.
The user may focus in on one thing to the exclusion of everything else. But the speeder doesn't care because he feels he is at the height of his intellectual powers.
This initial flash of brilliance is succeeded by a euphoria, an elevated mood; as the body continues to release stored energy from its reserves; Physically as well as mentally charged up, he feels capable of superman feats.
.............Life is a cartoon and the speeder is the Roadrunner. The high level of vitality begins to decline as the body's energy. stores are depleted. Restlessness, nervousness, and agitation replace nirvana.
The speeder's irritability progresses to paranoia, fatigue, and depression as the ride comes to an end. The roller coaster has -hit bottom. Headache, palpitations, dizziness, agitation, apprehension, and confusion have replaced ecstasy. Over? So soon? Well, that's easy to correct, reasons the speeder.
All I have to do is pop another upper, So the roller coaster chugs into action once again, setting into motion the vicious cycle known as the amphetamine jag.
......Since tolerance develops rapidly with use of amphetamines, the user needs to increase the dosage each time just to keep up. Feeling down? Pop an up. And so it goes, until the speeder is into a "run," staying up for four or five days at a time, unable to eat or sleep until he "crashes," falling into a deep sleep that can last for eighteen hours. The sleep of the speeder is hardly refreshing, however, since the dream cycle is interrupted by the drug. True dreams are not experienced. When he awakens, he's ready for another run, and it's deja vu time, up and down on the carnival ride. if the amphetamine is injected, the effects become more intense and the jag is shortened to days instead of weeks. Methedrine is a favorite for this form of self-abuse, called "speeding." Escalation of dosage, whether through repeated low doses over a period of time, high doses in sequence, or a single large dose, may create a toxic reaction known as amphetamine psychosis, lasting from a few days to a few weeks. The short term reactions to the drug are magnified, leading to an exaggeration of effects. Loss of appetite may become anorexia, a state in which it becomes difficult for the user to eat at all. Extreme weight loss occurs, and even the act of swallowing becomes difficult. Speed freaks aware of this phenomenon may force themselves to eat and take vitamins, but malnutrition, can still occur. Insomnia, lasting a day or two for moderate users, extends into days or even weeks during a "run," before the heavy user crashes.
Hallucinations, misperceptions, and inability , to function accompany insomnia, and may persist even with abstinence. Consciously aware that he is slipping into a world of delusion, the speeder can do little more than watch as anxiety and suspicion fill the vacuum that was once occupied by reality. Sooner or later, the high dose user will experience paranoia, with its feelings of persecution. He skulks about, certain the little old lady with the wrinkled stockings is following him. He is positive the kids on the corner are talking about him, his best friends are plotting behind his back, and his girlfriend is poisoning his toothpaste. "Crank bugs," the feeling of insects under the skin (fornication), harass him, and he has begun compulsively picking at his now-delicate skin forming ulcerations.
Hypomania, a form of repetitive action, overcomes the speed freak, producing behavior often considered bizarre, such as foot-tapping, coin-flipping, or construction of elaborate, useless mechanical devices. Jaw grinding, tremors, abscesses, and tooth loss are common symptoms of heavy amphetamine use. Several years of aging can occur in just a few months. Sexual performance is impaired and the user can't find words to describe how he feels. He vocabulary drops to a few hundred words, including such pithy quotes as "far out" and "gotanyspeed?" (lol)
"Speed kills" is the warning, scary but inaccurate. In fact, amphetamines themselves rarely kill, even in enormous doses.
Some of the long-term side effects may kill, but death, when it occurs, usually comes from violence, common to the speed. freak.
Paranoia, mood shifts, hyperactivity, and the resulting intensification of emotions, combined with the inevitable change of lifestyle - the hustling, the dealing, the, cheating: necessary for survival in he chaotic community of speed freaks-leads to, a high level of violence, including rape, homicide, and assaultive behavior. The long-term effects of amphetamine abuse may kill.
Malnutrition can lead to an increased susceptibility to disease and bacterial infection. Although pill-poppers are susceptible to most of the same detrimental reactions as needle freaks, injection may lead to even further complications. Needle related diseases such as viral hepatitis, leading to liver damage, occur; and the shooting of impure amphetamines containing materials not dissolvable in water may lead to blockage or weakening of small blood vessels, causing kidney and hag damage. ?A correlation exists between heavy users and-strokes, aneurisms, hematomas, destruction: of the brain by picnosis of the brain cells, and other cardiovascular disruptions. Amphetamine psychosis is considered by some to be a manifestation of pre-existing paranoid tendencies, a latent amphetamine personality which blossoms with the taking of the drug. Emotionally troubled before he enters the speed scene, dependent on other drugs or alcohol, the user's sense of insecurity and ineffectiveness vanishes with the euphoria of speed. Others feel that anyone givers a large enough amount of-amphetamines will eventually become psychotic.
Overdosing, or "over-amping," is rare. The lethal dosage is unknown. Habitual users may ingest from 200 to 1,000 mg a day without the overdose symptoms of chest pains, muscle or joint pain, unconsciousness, aphasia, paralysis, convulsions, coma or cerebral hemorrhage. More commonly, the victim will remain conscious, but his mind races full -speed beyond his control, while he remains immobile, unable to move. Speed-doesn't create energy; it mobilizes adrenalin. While the speeder may be thinking, "Feet, don't fail me now," they might. Overdose may be treated with niacin (vitamin B3), which acts as a mapping-up agent, ridding the bloodstream of impurities and restoring energy levels. Doses of 2,000 or 3,000 ma with equal amounts of vitamin C after meals throughout the day will help the speeder avoid a-hard crash, although he may experience a harmless heat flash lasting fifteen to thirty minutes. Tranquilizers such as Thorazine, Mellaril, Librium, and Valium are effective. Barbiturates are not advised because of their toxicity and the possibility of developing a speed/downer habit. Abstinence is the most effective method of withdrawal, but is often the most difficult because of the extreme fatigue, lethargy, anxiety, and depression which inevitably ensue. The combined problems of the hooked amphetamine user and the paranoid personality lead to a low cure rate. Although the body needs a full ay to recover from each day of speed abuse, withdrawal does not have to be gradual. In addition to tranquilizers, treatment includes a nutritious diet stressing mills and yogurt to replace the, calcium lost, plus liquids, vitamins, and psychotherapy. Complete recovery is slow, but possible. Confusion, memory loss, and delusions may remain up to a year after use is discontinued. Abstinence, the key to cure, is often almost impossible because of the strong psychological dependence acquired. Contrary to the official medical establishment's original opinion, amphetamines are addicting-but psychologically, not physically. Amphetamine addicts outnumber heroin addicts. by ten to one. The damage they inflict on both them selves and others is far out of proportion to that resulting from other drugs.
I......don't know what to do. So confused. I need to destroy something. I'm not quite sure what though. Ugh, I need to eat too. And change my clothes. And brush my teeth.
Edited Mon Dec 08 2008, 11:49am
Make all the jokes you want. Most of us have grown up in one way or another in the last 10 years. Except the fat kid from Maine. And at this rate I'll see 80. But he won't see 30. And I won't care. Tearing down other people who were once where he is now is shit.
I thought you'd become a big boy, Dylan. You're still a fucknut. Do us a favor and OD sometime soon, huh?
Edited Tue Dec 09 2008, 03:25am
Dude, I've tried. The human body tends to try and stay alive. I'm too lazy to try and kill myself daily. I only did it when certain circumstances were met. Unfortunately, I am very unlikely to die from an accidental overdose because of two things: I don't shoot up, and I'm hella drug smart. But please, if you would like to help my cause, send a Magnum and bullets to:
I would be dead by now if I had a gun.
Edited Sun Sep 27 2009, 03:04pm
