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oh shit. sorry guys. i'm just being me again, i was trying to be someone people would like to be around, and i fucked it up. LOL
smoothly rolling over day after day ...the picturesque pretty little couple everything in it's place .......smiling and laughing and really working it all out
...one morning you dropped a bomb in on our shiny white home .......you think that extravagant home cooked dope-sick look is gonna win over my pessimism, flip it into an opportunity for you .....and this rock shell cock stuffed attitude you carry now ...is getting quite old even though i still love you... somehow
when are you gonna find your bottom? when are you gonna try to finally win? ...when does the clock stop for you and .......when it does, can i get back in?
this ride we've been cruising .....has a streak of near misses and mostly losing ....can't you see that you're shooting at your own freedom?
My Awesome Wonderful Loving Husband
Gave His Fucking Phone Number To His Ex-Dealer Today Right In Front Of Me and My Psychiatrist....
I am Still Fucked Up about this...
we did discuss this... although he decided to start this day with a 6 pack of 24oz beers...
but when I told him that I am feeling Fight or Flight mode settling in, and he looked at me like I had insulted him and asked me, "why?"
I said this:
I have the right to make Boundaries, I have the right to protect myself, and I am making decisions.
I will talk more with you when you are sober.
OhMyGawd. So, I am flipping thru my Coping Skillz Folder, and have been all day.
Sorry, the fuck you post was from a Different event.. last night... once again, like, the hundredth time... I felt left out of oral sex and instead of just doing what he wanted, I just got up and left him hanging.
Fuck feeling like less than a person, just because he supposedly "Doesn't think," like, oh, you just gave me a killer blow job but I really did forget to reciprocate ...
Joined: Sat Mar 03 2007, 05:15pm
Location: creeping up behind you
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BTW I have a great pussy. It is nice looking, shaved, and it tastes pretty good. I know, I have tasted quite a few pussies. Personally, this motherfucker is missing out. His Loss.
I told him I would like to cut oral sex completely out of our relationship.
His jaw dropped.
I said, well, it's not like I'll be missing anything, is it?
Fuck it. I'm not gonna give it if I'm not going to get it.
I understand your anger with his addiction and his non-compliance on getting help and getting off the habit.
and SUPER MAD HIGH FIVIN' PROPS to you and you putting your foot down and setting your own boundaries. You are right. You have every right to set boundaries and expect them to be respected. Just have to follow through with that though. If you say, "No stuff in my home or I'll leave. " then if it's brought in, leave. That's how I am. It's very clear where my boundaries are and what the consequence is if it isn't respected. Then I asked if he was ok with that. Because if not, we would have ended it LONG before it got started. And so far no worries. But hells yeah! I like how you handled that. You, especially, need to be careful around his habit, seeing as how you're recovering from the same one. But that's such a strong move. That's so awesome, it's going to make me cry!
And since you really want that need met, and you feel it is a give and take situation, then stop giving. It's obvious that he's not going to do it. Then you should just stop because it's making you feel bad about yourself. *HUGS* Oh and Rachel, I like you just fine. I find it hard to understand you sometimes, but that's just because we are from very different backgrounds and experiences. But I like the parts I have seen...
Joined: Sat Mar 03 2007, 05:15pm
Location: creeping up behind you
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OH:
I aksed him for that dealer's number, cuz he got it and put it in his pocket.. then I tore it into tiny pieces, tossed it into the toilet, and peed on it.
You, especially, need to be careful around his habit, seeing as how you're recovering from the same one. But that's such a strong move. That's so awesome, it's going to make me cry!