Suz,When you first arrived here your personality seemed Strange and distand with your strange period style of writing,You seem to have mellowed out since then,What has changed to influance this in your life?
suze:
I'm still strange. maybe you have just gotten used to me. I also went to a psychiatrist and got ADHD meds...I still love my perioud key ....but as you know I had some complaints on that and I tried to tone it down some, I thought at first it was easier to read than big blocky paragraphs, but I realize now only people with ADD would agree.
forgotten:
Its obvious to the members here(since you told them) that your an ex drug user,What in your life brought you to drugs and what in your life finally told you "enough is enough"??
suze:
When I grew up it was more normal to be a drug user than not to be. I never considered not doing them. I was an only child in a world of adults parting , it was always "adult time" I wanted to grow up and use drugs so bad so I would belong. My mom told me only adults could use them...that children would imediately die from using them. so I waited. when I turned 17 or 18 the world got wise, my parents included, they said don't do drugs! it is a waste of time that will wreck your life!......it was too late by then, I was off and running. I'd quit and return to them for years because I did'nt feel right with out speed. I quit last time for 6 years and never drew a picture (i like to draw) for the whole 6 years. I started up using again and ran for two years before this, I decided my life was unmanageable and dried out. then being drug free I realized there was still a problem with my ability to organize and create. thats when I went to a psychiatrist and was diagnosed ADHD. now I don't feel the intense desire to use that I used to because my wires connect on my meds and I can draw and think more organized thoughts.....I'm not cured , just better.
forgotten:
Who is the real suzette?Is that your real name?Tell us some general information about yourself and what you do,Like and such....
suze:
Suzette is my alter ego, when I did drugs suzette was my personality who liked to draw, create, organize ect. when I quit for the 6 years I was a regular poster on meth madness I joined ezboard as "forget suzette" because I was trying to leave that part of me behind. The first time I saw the psychiatrist I came home and looked up "insanity" on the forum finder ....that brought me to the "asylum"....I was off-line about a year and returned to say hi at the asylum then arc e-mailed me and told me about thrash....so here I am. I dropped "forget suzette" to just "suzette" because I could have no spaces between words. my real first and middle name is suzanne x (my folks put "X" for no middle initial on my birth certificate and it stuck) I should'nt say my last name on line, you guys who e-mail me know it anyway. I was always called suz or suzie....so I like it when you call me suze....its feels like we are friends that way. things I like: the beatles most brittish rock,red hot chili peppers, grunge, disco, metal, classical, jazz....music.laying in the sun and getting drunk when I'm off work, working at night, staying up late, drawing, painting, writting poetry and stories,kareoke, seeing my friends, watching movies,(not tv) playing on the computer
forgotten:
If you could visit one place in the world,Where would it be and why? If I could go anywhere, I'd like to try hawaii because I have'nt been...also amsterdamn, I maybe real bad there tho! I've been all over the us and mexico,england and france. ....whatever I havent seen would be nice.
forgotten:
What is your general view on internet piracy?
suze:
it would be great if I knew how!
forgotten:
Do you have pets?Tell us about any pets you have or good memories about pets you may have in the past.....
suze:
I got two cats ...louie and sassy, I love kitties! louie can walk on a leash, I think he is friends with God and will tell on me if I do bad things.
forgotten:
Communication not only in real life,but on the internet is an everyday function and is very important,are you an open type of person or do tend to stay more on the quite and shy side?
suz:
c'mon forgotten! if I said I was shy would you belive me?.....I''m wide open baybee!
forgotten:
If you could have done one thing in your life,What would it have been?
suze:
If I could change my past ?.....I would never have done drugs.
THE END
I fucking did it you guys!!....I copied pasted and posted! .....love ya CA!
*takes a bow*......Thank you thank you.....I wasnt sure if it was too short?Some of my questions wernt that creative.......So asp,Your asking for an interview from multiple interviewers?Sounds kosher to me....Just let me know when u want me to send u my quesitons.....
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Suze Questions! Follow ups, I suppose...
1.) Suze, what was your most important relationship in your life?
All of them, but for different reasons and intensitys, if I love someone once, I always do. I never forget the core of what I loved about them to begin with. I could call any of the guys I lived with and they still want to chat...I'm very cool about accepting people as they are so most of my romantic relationships last 7 to 10 years...so I had three big ones....all parted friends.
love: Did you ever get married?
suz: No, I think its horrible for a relationship! My parents were divorced in 1972 but live together now as roomates... ....... I guess thats why.
Love: How many times have you been proposed to?
suz: 3 times...never did tho.... my word is good enough I don't cheat,
Lov: Are you in a committed relationship now?
suz: no
Lov:Do you want one if no?
Suz :not yet. I just broke up with a 10 year live in boyfriend in june. ..............I want to see what I am like now that I'm in my prime, myself.
Love: Do you think you are ready?
suz: No...I enjoy doing whatever I want to with out voting on if I can or can't. I don't belive in hindering what a person can experience in their life, you have to be able to let go of trying to control others or you got a hostage I don't want someone bigger than me telling me what to do right now. (so I live with my parents, heh!) I guess you can follow your heart better when you are single.
Love:2.) What was the shittiest thing you ever did to someone?
suz: When I lived in vegas and me and my ex broke up I got my parents to send me money for drugs and told them it was for rent....but I'm paying that back now. I really never fucked anyone over.
Love: Do you have a ton of friends, or a small group of close pals?
suz: small group of close pals I've known for long periouds of time. I don't have many here, I got my folks and I'm meeting people now ... I just got here. I stay in touch with my friends by email.
love: What constitutes a 'true' friend to you?
suz: someone that allows you to be what you are, trust, and having each others best intrest at heart. some people try to manipulate you into doing stuff thats best for them, I'm very gullable and I always think people are on the level because I am... I hate it when I find out someone is'nt putting in the same good intentions as me. ...like McCarther park, I don't want my cake left in the rain.
love: Can friends have sex together, like friends 'with benefits'?
suz: yes, ...... .........nothing means anything until you put a meaning on it. its all empty until you decide it means something, you could say it means this or that its really up to you what you get out of things.... you could see a movie but you fucked instead! only people I love tho! that can handle it like me ....that love me back!
Love: 3.) What is the worst position drugs ever got you in?
suz: the one I was just in ....broke, scattered mentally, dependant on a substance to function at all.
Love: Are there any good memories while stoned you can share?
suze: oh yeah,....stoned is different than wired. I'm not a reefer addict or anything...uhm ....what was I saying...?
love: Why do you like to get drunk?
suze: I don't do it too often.... .... I don't sleep well on alcohaul and I find I get drunk and I don't like it any more and want to be strait. so I go out once in a while and do kareoke (more times sober than not) or on holidays my family makes homeaide kaluah! we start drinking in the morning with coffee....and go all day till we are sober again. (why do I drink?.....family tradition)
Love: Is it a hot sun/Florida thing?
suz: yes. I do like to drink and lay on the beach and listen to tunes. It calms me down enough to lay there, and I like swimming in the ocean drunk. and the mix of the sun and fru fru (pina coladas and such) drinks hot sun, cool water, does me right. ....but I don't do it all the time. just to blow my pipes out or feel different for a change. I've been drunk twice since I've been here.
love: 4.) What is your idea of the perfect man?
suz: ....some one who appreciates me for what I really am. I've got a huge capacity for love and I sometimes love who I'm with more than they love themselves....its a let down when I realize they can't possibly know how I feel. ........its like leaving the window open with the AC on ....I'm pumping it out but they can't feel it. so I guess the anwer is ....a man with the capacity to love as much and as deeply as I do.
Love: What is your idea of a perfect date?
suze: a killer concert you both like and dinner or pie after to talk about how cool it was!
Love: Why do fools fall in love?
suze: ..... because in the end the love you make is equal to the love you make.
Love:5.) What is your town + neighborhood like? Is there anything fun to do there, perhaps unique/interesting?
suz: yeah man!... it's a beach town. its beautiful and seeminly unfounded by the masses. its got so much natural beauty its like my personal church.
Love:6.) How do you interpret evilness?
suz: people who do or say mean shit to fuck you up. the world trade center type shit....IRS
Love: Do you believe in a higher power?
suz: yes...but I have my own personal beliefs...I was not raised in religion so I read and felt around until I hit was feels right to me. I feel like we are all a spark off of the power gestalt or "God" for lack of a better word. and we knew what we came to earth for and forgot maybe in the birth canal....when you finally learn or experience what you came for . (I could go a while on this one) you die.....thats why I'm so bad I guess. if I completely reform, I'm dead.... I also feel like what you do causes ripples out like throwing a rock into a lake...it comes back. good and bad. even good and bad thoughts.
love: 7.) You seem to have done a decent amount of international travel... what was that all about?
suze: wanted to see different places...so I went on vacation and did it. I drove my truck from atlanta to new york once...saw washington DC on the way and the whole east coast.....went to mexico on vacation.(thank god for jimmy buffet I don't speak spanish I needed another redneck to sing me songs on their beach.) ............I was'nt fucked up on drugs my whole life, just sometimes. I had the same job as a singing ,dancing fabulous 50's diner waitress for 15 years...I felt like I was on a hampster wheel and I decided to move to vegas with my ex...we'd been together 5 years when we left . saved $$$ from all kinds of refraining from everything but working for eight months... ....on the way across the country driving from from atlanta... I saw missisippi, arkensas, texas, oklahoma ,arizona, new mexico, arizona and nevada. I was centelly located in the west so I saw cali...death valley and LA, san francisco. colorado, zion park in utah, salt lake city, reno nevada ect.. when in high school I was top of my french class and was offered a trip to england and france...so I went two weeks to each.
love: Pleasure vacation? suz:....... yes
love: Business?.suz:....... no
love: Lost? (lol) suz:............ sometimes
love: What are a couple good memories from those journeys?
suz: the mixed feelings off leaving my job, leaving atlanta ,my home, to go to vegas and find a place to live and a new job ....
....was incredible excitement ,joy, fear, freedom, horror, accomplishment and very possible failure wonderful mystery...I'll remember that feeling forever.... it was like in "easy rider" when peter fonda throws his watch away, and born to be wild plays. .................thats actually an emotion.
love: 8.) If you were on death row, and could have one conjugal visit before your demise, who would you want your last orgasm to be with?
suz: anthony keidis
love: 9.) What are some things in life you just can't live without?
suz:............the fucking beatles! they hit my re-set button for some reason...they make me HAPPY! I love them so much....*cries* .........that's why I love eminem too! gangsta rap cures me sitting around feeling full of love, it's unrealistic and I could get hurt like that.
love: What are some things you'd like to see destroyed?
suz: prejudice, .............. like someone can change their race on demand, it's absurd. if you were created, you have the right to be as you are. sexual preferance, religion, everything is (should be) freedom of choice. ..........the toilet to tap program in L.A. (means literally what it implies)
love: Who are some famous people that are complete assholes in your judgement?
suz: mark david chapman, susan smith, hitler (invented meth too) .......eminem, madonna ( I love their music, but they seem....hard to deal with)
"FoRgOtT3N" wrote ... *takes a bow*......Thank you thank you.....I wasnt sure if it was too short?Some of my questions wernt that creative.......So asp,Your asking for an interview from multiple interviewers?Sounds kosher to me....Just let me know when u want me to send u my quesitons.....
anytime brother.. I'm taking them off line, and when I get some time, (heh... *IF* I get some time) I'll answer them and post them in here...
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"suzette" wrote ... Damn Love! ..........Good questions! not your average mindless bullshit ...like an application or something. I'm on it. *smiles*
The replies are great Suz, you make a good subject too! some of the questions just kinda flowed one into the other, it was pretty easy and quick to compile them actually :
wow. Good questions, Forgotten. ^5 Suze, thanks for sharing so much aboot yourself. You're comfortable with your past and it seems you're indeed moving in the right direction now. Good job! *hug*
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