My granddad died monday morning, in his kitchen. No one found him until tuesday afternoon.
I got ill on sunday and didn't get the chance to phone him. So I never spoke to him before he died and I'm gutted about that. I really really wish I had phoned him.
I'm gunna miss him so so much, I was such a granddads little girl. He was always trying to tickle my feet and he nicked named me smileer....coz I was always happy and always laughing. He got to see our new car the last time I i was over to see him and when we drove off he waved and giggled at us. That was the last time I seen him.
I've been told by my family to carry on at college as there is nothing for me to do back home and that I can go there next week. My mums so upset. I hate seeing her upset. It hasn't even been a year since my Grandma died. He missed her so much and spent most of the time crying asking to be with her.
Well he got his wish and I hope that she gave him a big hug when they met up again.
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My mum keeps asking for him to come back and I don't know what to do. I just keep saying I'm sorry, then it gets me all sad...
The worst part is that we yet don't know what killed him. Should find out by friday.
*Hugs Hayley* I'm very sorry for the loss of your Grandda. Just know that whatever you couldn't tell him before he left this plane, he sees in your heart from the next. *HUGS* I'll say a lil prayer for you and yours, darlin.
Mum just phoned me, The people that do tests to see what killed him phoned her today and told her that it was an instant death, He wouldn't have felt any pain. It was a heartattack but it was to powerful that it killed him in an instant.
The thing is, my granddad went to the doctors that morning to ask for an appointment because he had felt really ill all morning and they turned him down because they were full. Later that day he died.
The Doctors her are so shit.
All I keep thinking is, that even if any of us had been with him that day then no one could have done anything for him, as it was instant.
I've been given my grandmas and granddads big dinning table thats been passed down to them... It will last forever, and I hope to pass it down when I'm an old lady.
Everyone in my family said that my granddad would have been really proud of me picking that to have over everything, as he would have been really pleased that hes given me something for the house.
Awww, he was such a kind man. Hardly thought of himself.
Just to add something else, My granddads having this song played at his funeral. He asked for it.
He was such an awesome man and this song says it all.
Frank Sinatra ? My Way
And now, the end is near; And so I face the final curtain. My friend, I?ll say it clear, I?ll state my case, of which I?m certain.
I?ve lived a life that?s full. I?ve traveled each and ev?ry highway; And more, much more than this, I did it my way.
Regrets, I?ve had a few; But then again, too few to mention. I did what I had to do And saw it through without exemption.
I planned each charted course; Each careful step along the byway, But more, much more than this, I did it my way.
Yes, there were times, I?m sure you knew When I bit off more than I could chew. But through it all, when there was doubt, I ate it up and spit it out. I faced it all and I stood tall; And did it my way.
I?ve loved, I?ve laughed and cried. I?ve had my fill; my share of losing. And now, as tears subside, I find it all so amusing.
To think I did all that; And may I say - not in a shy way, No, oh no not me, I did it my way.
For what is a man, what has he got? If not himself, then he has naught. To say the things he truly feels; And not the words of one who kneels. The record shows I took the blows - And did it my way!
(Yes, a German dark metal band serves up a true-to-the-original version of the Frank Sinatra seminal classic. This is NOT metal at all, rather, a fitting version for this thread.)
My family reminds me of goodfellas. I've met some scary people in my family and was told that some of them could be in the maffia. (They went back to italy... thankfully!)
Well thats bollox because my family WAS part of the mafia many years ago.
Anyways.. its Granddads funeral monday so I wont be around for a little while. Spending some time at home. You know, mums a little sad.. Actually shes heartbroken.
By the way, my driving test got cancelled. Something to do with the examiner being ill.... maybe next time ay?
