...........my shrink put me on Blood Pressure pills.
He looked at me like it was impossible and he couldn't have read it right, ...........and I must have an excellent embalmer.
I did'nt ask how high.........I see a BP cuff and I can feel my BP rise....seriously...the SIGHT of a bp cuff............I do best, alone, in a pharmacy...when someone comes for me holding one.....it's never good.
.....I have'nt told him I have a HISTORY of it.
for fear he'd take me off my ADHD meds.
.................................I have a history of it.
all thru my 20s...I barely slid by to get birth control pills... ......they made me quit smoking before they would give em to me when I turned 35.
I don't want to take these pills.
...................I took em with meth in Vegas.
my blood pressure was 185/95.....I was literally talking myself out of strokes.
I'd get blind in my peripheral vision, like tunnel vision...no sound.
....my crying sounded shrill....too high...but like I was hearing it under water.
my head hanging off and my legs up the wall.. .....and breathe, and imagine oxygen flooding my brain. listen to pink floyd, and my cat knew what to do....he always jumped on the bed with me....and purred....like he knew he could help.
....all...right after a big capsule of speed.
....I couldnt believe something I thought would raise me from the dead was gonna kill me....
.......I thought it loved me.
....I even left home to die outside, a couple times........so the cops did'nt interrogate my ex.....
I went to a Dr in vegas, got bp meds, and continued to use meth.
.....when I took em alone I felt so tired..
this is strained peas...
when I quit speed....my blood pressure is still high.
.............................I don't want to take em.
I asked my shrink, if what is saving me, (adderrall) is killing me.
.....he said, no big deal...this will lower my pulse thats all I need.
the idea is for me to be CALM and focused.
.................I got all the classic symptoms..
my left hand goes numb..I'm short of breath sometimes, headaches.
Suze, I don't know if it is supposed to do that to you. I have the opposite problem. My blood pressure is just NOW getting to normal ranges and I'm on drugs that causes your pressure to raise. *L* You should talk with your doc though if you are overmedicated. That's not his job. His job is to get you to function well in society without any ill affects to you.
